(HE ARRIVES WITH GIFTS... in his arms, there are bottles of tea he got from a vending machine and some... rice crackers. There is not enough food to really get real snacks.
But he sets everything down on the nightstand next to the bed and immediately goes him.)
Instinctively, he leans into the touch, tilting his face so he feel more of his touch. Looking up through white lashes, eyes bright with excitement and surprise,)
Really?!
(He's more excited about this than most people would be, even given their relationship. But he won't get too caught up in this. It's so clear that Aki wanted to talk about something and--)
You didn't want to talk about dinner.
(He wanted to talk about something else, didn't he? And he straightens himself a little more to give Aki his attention. 100%. Undivided.)
[ It's endearing, and Aki can't resist the urge to lean close, seeking, wanting, yearning. It anchors him, and he sighs softly before he shakes his head.
"Us." He says and a thought immediately flashes through his mind. What about us? What are we? And his heart twists. It's slight, but Aki may feel the way Tsurumaru's own grip seems to tighten almost by reflex.
Sitting on the bed, he leaves a space for Aki to sit next to him and turns to face him, to give him his full attention.
[ The hand tightens, and Aki realises the misstep.
'Us'. Is there even an 'Us' to talk about? He might have confessed to Tsurumaru, but they never agreed to anything. They're just... Together. Enjoying one another's company. He shifts awkwardly, looking away, unable to meet Tsurumaru's eyes.
He's messed it up, and he doesn't want to admit the guilt of it. ]
He said he was happy for me. That's not the important point here.
[ Aki's eyes blink rapidly, as if he's fighting tears. ]
(He's a sensitive spirit. Aki, that is. Of course, he notices. Likewise, Tsurumaru also notices and he leans in, under, and looks up. If Aki won't meet him then he will. It's not his fault that he's like this. It's not his fault that he's so afraid of making things real because real things can be lost.
But at the same time, this isn't about "us." It's about "them" and it's easy to try and redirect his attention. )
Hayakawa Denji. (He says it too. Because once spoken, it becomes real... and this time, it's good. It's good to make it real. It's good to say it.) What a good name. It has a ring to it.
[ Aki's eyes are a little dark, his expression somewhere between joy and grief, a strange twist of agony and discomfort before he breathes out. Reaching up, he tugs the band out of his hair and lets his fingers run through it, before he leans back against the other man's body.
It's easier, with the warmth of a body beside him, and he closes his eyes, leaning down. ]
I didn't know. I had no idea that he'd chosen to...
[ The tears are coming. Aki can't help himself. He'd changed his will to make sure Denji was taken care of. He'd given up on the Gun Devil. He'd found happiness.
Then it had all been ripped away from him, because of his desire to protect Denji.
But... They're together here...
Blinking rapidly, he breathes out a sharp sound. ]
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But he sets everything down on the nightstand next to the bed and immediately goes him.)
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It's clear something has hit him, emotionally, but... ]
You're warm.
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It's hot! It's so hot here! I don't remember summer ever being this hot!
(Is someone going to tell him about global warming or,,,,,,)
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You can have a cool shower later.
[ Aki is still gazing at him, as if some burden has been lifted, and his fingers stroke Tsuru’s cheek gently. ]
I’ll make you dinner.
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Instinctively, he leans into the touch, tilting his face so he feel more of his touch. Looking up through white lashes, eyes bright with excitement and surprise,)
Really?!
(He's more excited about this than most people would be, even given their relationship. But he won't get too caught up in this. It's so clear that Aki wanted to talk about something and--)
You didn't want to talk about dinner.
(He wanted to talk about something else, didn't he? And he straightens himself a little more to give Aki his attention. 100%. Undivided.)
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[ It's endearing, and Aki can't resist the urge to lean close, seeking, wanting, yearning. It anchors him, and he sighs softly before he shakes his head.
No, this isn't why he called for Tsurumaru. ]
I spoke to Denji.
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(Ah, he looks surprised and then... guilty? He looks guilty.
Of course, it makes sense to him. The sudden message, the serious air in the room, the way he wanted to talk to him specifically, and about Denji? )
Oh, no.
(Oh, no????)
I didn't know.
(Didn't know what???)
Times have changed!
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[ Aki leans back, looking at him for a moment, completely confused. ]
What are you talking about?
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(Nothing at all! He takes it all back!)
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Did you do something with Denji?
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Nothing wrong.
(... Okay, maybe it was wrong.)
Well, nothing bad.
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[ Aki strokes his cheek with deceptively soft fingers. ]
What did Denji do?
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Nothing! He didn't do anything!
(It was him!!! HE DID IT!!)
You know Denji-kun is a good boy.
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A good boy who did something you're not going to tell me?
[ Eyebrow. ]
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Mumbling,)
... It was just alittlebittodrink I didn't know therewerenewrules.
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[ Aki frowns, shifting. ]
Normally he wouldn't have bothered, since it was illegal... But he's a lot older now. Older than I remember.
[ An uncomfortable knot twists inside of him. ]
It's fine, Tsuru.
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(That's all he did. That's all they did!!! But more importantly, now that he knows that wasn't the whole point of this meeting...
He leans in and looks up at Aki, studying him,)
What did you talk about instead?
(And he slips his hand into Aki's and guides him over to sit down.)
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Aki lets himself be tugged along, moving and settling down, tugging Tsurumaru close and sighing softly. ]
I told him about the two of us.
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"Us." He says and a thought immediately flashes through his mind. What about us? What are we? And his heart twists. It's slight, but Aki may feel the way Tsurumaru's own grip seems to tighten almost by reflex.
Sitting on the bed, he leaves a space for Aki to sit next to him and turns to face him, to give him his full attention.
He's anxious. He's still anxious when he asks,)
What did he say?
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'Us'. Is there even an 'Us' to talk about? He might have confessed to Tsurumaru, but they never agreed to anything. They're just... Together. Enjoying one another's company. He shifts awkwardly, looking away, unable to meet Tsurumaru's eyes.
He's messed it up, and he doesn't want to admit the guilt of it. ]
He said he was happy for me. That's not the important point here.
[ Aki's eyes blink rapidly, as if he's fighting tears. ]
He told me... His name is Hayakawa Denji.
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But at the same time, this isn't about "us." It's about "them" and it's easy to try and redirect his attention. )
Hayakawa Denji. (He says it too. Because once spoken, it becomes real... and this time, it's good. It's good to make it real. It's good to say it.) What a good name. It has a ring to it.
(And he smiles softly,)
Were you surprised?
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It's easier, with the warmth of a body beside him, and he closes his eyes, leaning down. ]
I didn't know. I had no idea that he'd chosen to...
[ He swallows. ]
We're family.
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You're family. (There's no doubt about that,) You love each other.
I see.
(And he hums,)
You live.
(Even if it's just in name.)
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[ The tears are coming. Aki can't help himself. He'd changed his will to make sure Denji was taken care of. He'd given up on the Gun Devil. He'd found happiness.
Then it had all been ripped away from him, because of his desire to protect Denji.
But... They're together here...
Blinking rapidly, he breathes out a sharp sound. ]
I... Didn't know how much I meant, too. To him.
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